para los que amo, voy a sacrificar.

day 10 is suppose to be a picture of something that i use daily.. so here is someday by justin bieber. ^^v

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HARLOW.
I TYPED A SUPER LONG POST ABOUT WHAT WAS HAPPENING RECENTLY BUT I DECIDED THAT IF PEOPLE REALLY CARED ABOUT YR LIFE THEY WOULD JUST TEXT YOU AND ASK YOU HOW IT HAS BEEN. MINE IS TO THE EXTEND THAT IM SAYING FUCK MY LIFE AND DONT YOU PEOPLE COME TO SP. GO TO NP, NYP, RP, TP. you have been warned.

i dwell with a strangely aching heart

day 8 is suppose to be a picture of your sky and that was how mine looked like a few days ago when i went jogging. it was kinda dark cuz it was gonna rain but it didnt and i managed to watch the sunset. :-) i hate it when the weather is bad when i go for a jog because jogging really helps me think. i dont know how it works but whenever i go for a jog i think better and after the jog all my problems would be solved somehow or rather. if it doesnt that means that i will have to continue jogging for the next few days until i get it sorted in my brain i guess.

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(i think i look cuter when i was younger ^ )
holaaaaaa. how is it going for you guys? :-)
i wanna thank a certain someone that has helped me thru something that happened not too long ago. i guess it was great that i took the advice. it wasnt the fact that i didnt thought about the ways to solve it- i already knew i had to do it i just didnt want to, or rather didnt have the courage to. but you telling me the problem straight to my face was just the antidote that i needed to wake myself up from this mess. i guess you gave me courage to do something and it made me feel better ever since. i dont know why but it did and im glad. i still think about the problem now and then but i dont regret because i know that whatever i did was for the best and i had to let go at one point or another. there was no point holding on to something that had already been lost.

oh look im a happy cat. lol. my sist bought this to wear to the halloween event at USS.. and i guess it looks cuter > scary. probably it just attracted all the weird killer clowns and scary dolls to her i dont know. if i went there i bet i will be like " ahhh fuck you fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck " lol. i am never good with scary stuff  or horror movies. but i think im getting numb to horror movies now.. cuz i didnt scream at the lastest one that i watched. yay me?

school on tuesday was great because it was our first gym practical! everyone looks so sporty yay and renie looks super cute here, doesnt she? this is like the yoga room i think because there are mirrors on the walls of the room and yoga balls at the side. This gym is built solely for DNHW students! how cool is that? :-)

i guess thats all, cuz im tired and i need my rest. harhar.
i shall leave you with this song because i think dappy sounds great singing solo.

i'd say i give a fuck but i dont.

let me start the post with a 16 pictures of myself becuz i luv myself.  lol. follow me on insta (@beldelacour) if you love me too. lol im just sayin'
day 6 is suppose to be something that makes me smile and i dont really know.. hmm. i guess the thing that made me happy recently was finding my old ( now spoilt ) watch under my bed. i have been mourning for so long and i found it under my bed. sweet surprise.

i cant say school has been great because it havent. but i see everyone trying really hard now and it stresses me out like crazy because when i get home i dont really do much work. especially since the school just started, i just come back home and read my books. oh yay another thing that makes me happy.

on the bright side which really isnt very bright to begin with, the lecturers arent that bad. i have to say i luv paul's lessons cause i can relate to them pretty well. He is like this macho guy teaching us and its really funny cuz he reminds me of johnny bravo without the blond hair.

on the other not so colourful side of my life, i realised that im starting to hate texting alot. so i either take very long to reply or dont reply cuz i dont like it anymore. i stopped checking twitter as often because all i see nowadays are just indirect tweets scolding each other or whatever. i mean i do that when im bitchy but not so much anymore because i keep telling myself that i dont want to be like that. plus, its quite meaningless to do so if you were scolding someone and they are completely oblivious to it...... and ask you "who you bitching about" then you're like.. "you."

since this post is already so lenghty (is it even a word? lol) i shall do day 7 as well.
here is a picture of my favourite quote. it has been ever since someone left but then i think it has served its purpose for me and now it shall for you.

heres a random picture of me from not too long ago.. during the start of hols.

ok i hope you like my screaming face and halloween is coming.. so you shall be dreaming of me screaming tonight. hopefully it will be a beautiful nightmare.harhar. tell me how it goes.

see you all very soon. x

Day 5 - something you wore

my most recent ootd. so i might as well use it cuz it suppose to be a picture of something i wore.
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i guess if you all have been reading my twitter, you must be wondering why i was so sad the past couple of days.. well, its because my hamster died. yala some people might think im over-reacting or what not but fuck you cuz you dont have a pet, much less know the feeling of losing one. you dont know how it feels like to carry its stone cold body and bury it, hoping that wherever it is going it has gone to a better place. so dont comment on something you have yet to experience and dont tell me you feel me becos you obviously dont. i dont need pity or whatever because i know thats not going to get me my hamster back. i just wish i could have done more for this hamster so its able to live longer.. i dont know. Rest In Peace, fluffy. 28 dec 2009 - 9 oct 2012. no hamster can ever replace you and i'll visit you whenever i can.

thank you for everyone that has been there. jr texted me and like said " who make you cry!?" and like he was upset that he couldnt cheer me up but thanks for being there :') and fauzan texted me to ask me to call him but i didnt reply or call at all then he still called me up at night and asked me whats wrong. Yiying sent me a super long message asking me to cheer up :') and ryan who can totally relate to my situation.. thank you all so much.

i guess all i need now is closure.

day 4- a picture of your mail box.

well its sad that i dont have a pretty mailbox to post up but what the hell. actually i do. it is made of metal and it is very ugly. i bet everyone has one similar to mine. unless you're staying in a private property which is a different case lol. but good for you anyway, you can do this 30 day challenge then!

i have been shopping alot lately and yes it makes me happy. so if you are reading this, you should ask me out so i have a chance to wear what i bought ^^v hahaha. im just saying that.

anyway, im running out of things to do during the holidays so im pretty glad it is coming to an end. i havent touched my pen in the longest time so my handwriting is going to be awfully ugly for the first few days... on top of that i really hate ugly handwriting so i'll probably re-write everything once i have the time. lol.

im so glad im going to be going out for almost the week next week tho! traning and hair treatment on monday with yilu, cycling at ecp with my girls on tuesday, training and baking with my buddies on wednesday, bestfriend day on friday! :-)

lol sometimes i dont even know why i blog.

DAY 3

hi i havent been here for awhile. normally dont blog becuz im happy but thats not the case and i dont know why either. i feel like no one is going to read whatever shit im going to type anyway but im still here typing. what the hell am i doing.

recently so many bad things are happening. okay not exactly bad but not really good either. i just wish things were better. ya you guys are probably saying, what bad things can happen to you cuz others are probably having it worse- the starving kids in africa blah blah blah. so if you put it that way isnt it saying that i cant be happy cuz others might have it better? lol. just a food for thought.

anyway to all those taking o levels out there i hope you guys are all well prepared and stuff. another 20+ days right? just bear with it for now cuz things are going to awesome once o levels end! :-) i remember when i got my results someone was like " huh you so smart ah? i thought you very stupid one" ya fuck you cuz i did better than you.lol and i did it without your tuition(s) so i can say that whatever that i have today is what i have worked so hard for. dont go looking down on people just because im in the last class of the express stream. look where you are now? lol. i didnt want to be so blunt but like, if im stupid then what r you. not like i got a single digit or what but i think 10 points is not that bad for a stupid person like me right. of cuz there are smarter people around but i dont go around calling people stupid.

so, for those taking o's, use this opportunity to work hard and prove others wrong. at the end of the day (as cliche as it sounds) you do reap what you sow. i wish you all the best, becuz i's like to believe the best in everyone. ^^

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anyway day 3 is suppose to be a picture of somthing that you love. so, here is a picture of me and my 10 sisters. :-) i love them all.