whats upppp im back hehe.
finally 17th! 365 more days till i'm legal. anyway, exams is finally over. i swear i have never tried so hard in my life before so all that i have been studying for has got to be worth it.
celebrated my 17th birthday with the volleyball girls at MBS! how cool is it that my dad has finally let me stay over. this is like the first friggin time and im so glad that my parents allowed me to stay. lololol. i sound like im 13th with over-protective parents.. but im still grateful nonetheless. the girls surprised me while i was on the phone with the bro in the toilet. (because the reception is the best there) cuz he wanted to be the first to wish me and he was. haha how sweet is he?! ^^v
it was a great start to being seventeen even though i might not have been very much sober to remember most of it. ^^ i love my girls for planning it, and i love them because each and everyone of them was able to make it.
letter from janelle! thank you for the seventeen wishes <3 ^^ i will find a guy that will accept me for my looks, character, personality, laughter, style of clothes, cup size, waist size, etc. haha ^^
told wk that i lost my watch and he gave me on for my birthday. but i have to count to tell the time. it is a complicated watch but thank you for the watch and chocolate. haha thank you for coming early to 5 hours before your paper and giving it to me. ^^ im such a lucky junior... sometimes. hahaha :')
one time i told the bestfriend that i wanted a hello kitty watch when we walked past the watch shop and he actually remembered. Plus he got it for me as a birthday present! so freaking happy because i wanted this watch since forever. even though it is meant for kids, im still able to wearing it. cool or what. ^^ so the sales person asked joseph if he was buying it for a small kid and he said yes. lolol and he keeps saying im small now and even smaller with this watch. oh well. im still so freaking happy. i kept telling him that through out the entire time we were out. hahaha.
thank you to rene and julia for the pen and the glow in the dark nail polish.. somehow it doesnt work for me i dont know why. but damn cuz i wanted to scare people with it. thank you to twins for the necklace and the letter ^^ so sweet of you both to buy me the cake as well!
:) i appreciate everything.
thank you terence for the cupcakes even though i cant eat them due to my cough and flu but it was very nice and unexpected. :) first time receiving 17 cupcakes!
most primary school card i have seen ever, but i guess it is the thought that counts haha tq to jiawei. shiyuan said that her card is more awesome compared to this but i have yet to receive it. haha
cake from my class ^^
went for class outing today and i shall do a post on it cuz i think this is wayyyy too long.
till the next post, xx.
on a side note, i think i look better smiling with teeth, what about you? changing my hair colour with yilu tomorrow at our salon hehe. still thinking of what colour i should change to.. hmm. suggestions?
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edit. i dont know what i am doing blogging about this because you dont even read this. it has been almost... 3 weeks? i dont know what is with you and your constant drinking and shit, but you should stop cuz it is bad for you. i dont know why you're acting like this because you are so much better before. i guess all i wanted was change and i thought i could count on someone like you. so i guess when it is all said and done, there is nothing much we can change. you're all i think about during lonely nights like these. with hope, i hope you think about me often enough. thank you.
hellooooooooo. haha. yay so glad cell bio is over and now i don't have to study that shit anymore. i really screwed the paper up in ways that i cannot explain. i dont know what the hell i was doing yesterday when i was suppose to be studying. sigh. distractions distractions. see this is why i dont put my heart out like that anymore. its not worth it. anyway, 4 more papers to go guys! wish me luck^^
so recently i told everyone that i cut my hair short again. andddd heres the picture:
i swear it looks quite real doesnt it? but i still dont think i look good in short hair. so when i went back to school on wednesday jr was like: " i thought you cut hair?" so it must have been quite convincing to a certain extend. i was looking forward to today for like the whole week but then i guess just not so much anymore.
i dont understand why we have the need to write down our reflections after we complete a cip project. of course some people might think otherwise, but for me it doesnt work.. AT ALL. i know how i am suppose to feel and what i learnt from it but when they force it out of us to write it down on a piece of paper, it is all just bullshit to me. i have always thought that it is just a waste of time. this is because most people write the same things over and over again. so we are all trained to write the same thing even though we dont feel the same way because it is inhumane to feel otherwise.
like when someone ask you "will you ever do that again?" when you have done something wrong, obviously you'd say that you wouldn't just because you dont want to get into the same shit that you are in right now. stupid stupid rhetorical questions.
had a great morning yesterday w everyone and fauzan.
we were suppose to be doing our psychology but we're just too lazy haha. Completed the HME slides for the presentation tho.^^
this is me saying hi to the start of a new month. my birthday month at that. 17 years of life and i have really seen how much i have grown and changed. i like who i am now, people that i have met and people that are in my life right at this moment. thank you, for being a part of it. Going to take this chance to list out 10 things that i like. haha.
1. Eiffel tower
its so pretty. just look at it. even the word pretty is an understatement. I remember that i was going crazy about this once when i was in Sec 2/ 3. so, marcus and i made a promise to each other that in 8 years time, we would save up enough money to go there together. haha. it is probably never going to happen but planning things like this makes you smile once in awhile.
2. Roses
i love roses. but only in the colours red and white. Why white? Because when you give someone white roses, it means that you're telling him/her that they are worthy of you. Most people always think that roses are a waste of money, and why should they get something that is going to die in the end anyway? But it isnt a waste of money if you are spending it on someone you love. So what if the roses die? you know that the love wouldn't.
3. Helium balloons
4. Cupcakes
My favourite flavour is red velvet. i love the fact that each and every one of them is baked and decorated so flawlessly. If i have a chance, i'd start a cupcake business.Then whenever people are feeling down i can give them a cupcake to cheer them up. ^^
5. Sunset / sunrise
sunsets and sunrise are like the two most important things that happens daily. Watching the sunrise is like telling me that it is a start of a brand new day, so that i'll remember to make it count. If i ever have a boyfriend in the future, i hope we'll watch it together. What can be better than spending the start of your day with someone you love. The best sunrise that i have watched in the past 17 years of my life was when i was climbing mount kinabalu with the most awesome people in qtss. ^^ i'll never forget that feeling and i am still so grateful that i was given a chance to experience that.
6. Kittens
i am more of a cat person. its not that i hate dogs, i just prefer cats > dogs. Cuz when i was jogging in a park once, a dog came and chase me until i fell down and cried. Since i was very young when that happened, i guess a phobia like that can never be easily forgotten. i keep telling mom that i want a cat but she just doesnt approve of it. :(
7. Polariods
8. Light sticks
i can never get bored of this. no matter how many times i have had it, it is still freaking ass cool to me. haha. dont you find it fascinating how it can light up once you break it?
9. Sappy sappy longhand love letters
i think it is romantic how people used to communicate through letters before they invented mobile phones and internet. now that there are such things, hand written letters are dying out and it is such a pity. so write me one? ^^
10. caramel latte
my favourite drink to start the day with.
btw, give this song a listen. it has been stuck on my head.
thats all. have a great week ahead <3
you know i love you. xx.
so tell me why do people leave, and why do hearts break? i think there is only so much that i can take.
