Part 2

Actually I'm feeling pretty excited about this part because I had no idea that people were reading and haha some of them were asking me about part two.

So where did I stop? Oh yeah the awkward dinner. Awkward because his friend was there haha. So we didn't manage to have those proper meaningful conversations like those you have on dates and stuff. But things really progressed from there. Given the short amount of time we were together, all the pieces fell together, the right pieces... 

You know how people love long and meaningful messages? We had that, and still have it even tho it isn't as frequent as before. He have this unwritten rule that he must send me home always, not only because he wants to spend more time with me but also make sure that I got home safe and sound.more of the latter actually. It really means a lot to me, not because I never had anyone send me home before, but because I stay at woodlands now and he stays at holland. That's an hour ride to my house and an hour back... So much time spent just to make sure I was safe. But I guess to him every single second was worth it. Normally my classes ends around 5/6 last sem, so he had to either wait for me or wait for me? Haha. unless if he is unable to send me home he will ask me to take a cab back home and pay for it.

At first i was really reluctant for him to send me home always. i hated getting used to something i thought i was going to lose. like what if he didnt stay? what if he left? what if he was playing me? but now its like a usual routine, something we both love to do together. at the end of a long hard day in school all we want, or at least what i want, is to be in his arms. Then we'll ask about all the events that happened in the day and even if it was bad, we'd still have each other.

ahh. im side tracking. oh yeah i was talking about the messages. we continued with the usual date routines, the long messages, movie dates etc etc.. and finally one day, he asked. OMG HAHA I LOVE TELLING THIS PART BECAUSE GUESS HOW HE ASKED ME.

he wrote it on a crappy piece of paper. haha. then i was like " no " i want a do-over. i dont want to look back at this in the future and all i got was a crappy piece of paper. So it dragged on for a few days, and then he asked me, face to face. This is the second best part. guess how long he took to ask me to be his girlfriend? 45 minutes. freaking 45 minutes hahaha and he was saying how fast his heart was beating and how he has never done anything like that before.but after 45 minutes, he finally gathered the courage to.

Somehow i am really glad that i've met him because i swear, besides him, no one else knows me like he does. He will always know what's on my mind most of the time and i can always tell him anything and everything on my mind. He feels like he have known me forever too. We kinda talked about it once, and its crazy how much we can read each other. There was once, his friend found out about him having a girlfriend and kinda asked how long we have been together and stuff. so he replied "oh two years plus"

yeah he is just kidding, it isnt even two years, but that is how it feels like. it feels like we have known each other forever.

you must be wondering if we had any quarrels, we did. we fight about alot of things, we walk out on each other, we send each other hate textes. but all in all, at the end of the day, we know who we want to see at the end of our tunnel. These quarrels we have or had are just a part of the hurdles we have to go through together.

after all, we know that we only have each other to depend on when times get rough and that is what pulls us through. have a problem? sit down and talk it out. find a solution before it gets too late. we always have this rule that we must always say what we feel and how we feel. By trashing it out, we change and make ourselves better for one another.

haha, i guess thats all?
c u next post. xx

Stress out.

I just need a break from everything. I'm so tired everyday of the week I feel like a zombie. This course is expecting so much from me... Sigh. I used to be so happy learning all the new things every single week but nowadays I find myself slaving after new assignments everyday.

People are constantly stepping on my toes because I don't even bother to make a stand. This has to stop. 

Last but not least .... please please please maintain your originality. Sigh. Fucking copycats everywhere 

And hafiz if you're reading this, I'm so sorry you have to go through all of this shit with me. I love you. Thank you, thank you, thank you, you're my pillar of support. Thank you because I can tell you. Anything and everything and you know me best and you make all the decisions after thinking what would be best for me. I appreciate that. After all this I promise you a trip to our secret place and I'll be paying the bills. :-) 

On a happier note my book is finally gonna arrive from the us hehe. I love receiving parcels. 

Hafiz

I just realized that in none of my blog entries have i ever talked about hafiz or how we met and such hehe. So, this shall be the first. pardon my grammatical errors and spelling errors because i've been having 3/4 hours sleep for the past week and right now it is about 2 am. 

Anyway, lets start it off with how we met. Actually, i met him like a year ago when i joined softball. (Thank god i joined softball) and didnt join volleyball. Firstly, i really wanted to try something new and i have to thank the person that got me into it in the first place, Boo. hehe. Sports Camp GL for my group that kinda asked me to go for tryouts. even though i wasnt able to make it for tryouts i went for the next several trainings instead and it turns out that i was picking up this sport quite quickly. i really wanted a sports CCA and because i really hate stepping out of my comfort zone, i decided to choose softball. since i already knew boo and its really cool because she turns out to be jiamin's cousin. hehe (small small world).

so i talked to hafiz after the next several trainings, i cant remember exactly when but all i knew was that he was really irritated and annoyed at me. in my defense i wasnt even trying to irritate him haha. i just didnt want to do the drills because like... OMG we have been batting the balls like robots continuously for the past hour already. other than that i dont really recall having much conversation with him.. infact none at all. cause i thought he was a senior then like all the softball people are not rlly the type of people i wanted to date because i felt that dating within your cca is so damn awkz and weird. haha ok im biting my own tongue now.

(this is during our softball trip, and if you can spot hafiz he is the one with the oakleys)

That was until our softball trip at chiangmai, thailand during the hols.Then we started having like real conversations haha. Like i said before i really didnt like stepping out of my comfort zone and i wasnt really close to anyone in softball yet, other than boo. so i was feeling pretty reluctant to go at first and again (Thank god i went) it has given me much exposure in terms of softball and it brought the girls team much much closer together than we were before. I met max and haha she really took care of me during the trip and im still grateful up till now. oh right and i met hafiz haha. actually i didnt know how it started. im not sure if it was the airplane ride or the long bus ride. but all in all throughout the whole trip he took really good care of me as well. even though i didnt think much of it then but when i think back now it makes my heart skip a beat and i feel butterflies in my tummy haha. but something bad happened along the trip cause like i was robbed and hafiz felt like it was his responsibility to "protect" everyone. i dont know why but he felt really guilty about it. so after the incident happened he kinda avoided me and we didnt speak for quite awhile.

School reopened and i dont usually see hafiz around school because being a science student most of our meals are usually at foodcourt 3 and hafiz was always hanging around foodcourt 5. apparently there is alot of pretty girls there for him to ogle at? idk. but on that day that school reopened i saw him at fc3 and like he wanted to ask me to go back to his secondary school to help with coaching?! what a way to ask a girl out idk. haha. but in the end i didnt manage to go because he thought i didnt reply him (because his phone didnt recieve the message) and i thought he didnt reply me because i dont know, guys are weird. they dont reply for no reason. then yiying was like telling me that i should call him to see if the plan is still on or like its cancelled. haha at first i didnt want to then yiying was like telling me " at least you try"  so i did. but guess what HE DIDNT PICK UP. lol.

so i thought like the whole thing was stupid and i was pretty much cursing at him for making me bring all my softball equipments to school without using them. Plus i had to lug it all the way home like hello. its not light?!?!?! in the end he called back then i was like " you're the one that didnt reply me" then he was like " ya right i was waiting for your reply" and he asked me out for dinz. haha which was very very awkward but look where we are now. haha

ok im gonna stop here. haha part 2?
luvz.xx