So much for the happy endings huh?
I'm so sorry. Wish it would have been a better.. For both of us. I guess Its just me then..

Guess its just me against the world now.

Lonely

I don't know why but I feel all alone now. Wheres Joseph? I don't know either but he is happy either way so it doesn't really matter.

Today wasn't a rlly good day for me, idk why. I think after all I am afraid to be alone. I thought I could really make it on my own but I guess I thought wrong. I wish I had someone here now to listen to me. Yeah like that's ever happening. I really wish that someone was Joseph but I guess he doesn't love me enough to notice that anything is wrong.

I guess he really needs that quality time w his cousin so I don't really mind. Looks like I'll be coming here more often now. I remember about what I said that this blog is only meant for happy stuff? But then again I'm so sick and tired of keeping it to myself. I really admire people who can do that and act like their happy when their life is going in all the wrong directions... I wish I could have that I kind of control. But of course I don't and that's why I'm here.

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.

Meow meow

Hi ! ^^ I'm finally back after so long! gt so many things to type about. Idk who even reads my blog anyway. Even Joseph doesn't bother, so I guess this is just another place I've come to vent stuff.

I'm just loving the life after O levels. Even though there is not much freedom given to me by my parents.. Like there's still a certain time I have to be home ( don't be mistaken, It's not curfew, just that I have to inform them when I'm coming home and stuff ) anyway the good part is that I get to do whatever I want. Like lazing on a couch all day, going S H O P P I N G (!!) watching my fav drama on the lappie & teevee, reading a book up till 3 am in the morning, waking up anytime that I want and sleeping anytime that I want.
It's actually a good feeling cuz during o levels, I actually felt guilty about not studying for a day.. And now? IM A FREE BITCH BABY!! ^^

It gets boring aft the first week so I got a job! ^^ it's actually pretty fun but it's tiring. And after clearing tables for like idk how many people I've decided never to play w my foo dwhen I'm eating out cos it's just gross. I'm look forward to learning how to make a frappe though! I've only learned halfway... But I hope that I'll be taking orders and making my very own one soon!! ^^

Prom is just around the corner but I haven't gotten my dress yet. Everyone around me seems so excited about prom night like its a dream come true but to me it's just another night out with my friends. I used to be Excitied about it.… just not so much anymore and to be honest I don't know why either.

It's alr 12:08 am alr. Got to go and sleep now cos I promised Josey to sleep before 12. nights! ^^

P.s. I want a cat so badly. Meow :(