bored

hi hello, it has been a long long time since i have last blogged and used the laptop to do so.. so well here i am. looking at the speed that i am using to type this is like way slower compared to the times that i had to do my fnn research when i was sec 4 for o levels.

i realised i havent been updating my facebook lately and all i ever do is go in there to accept friend requests that i dont even know. i think i diont know half of my facebook friends.. thats kinda sad, right? anyway i guess that i am just really bored cos my boyfriend is at his grandmas and my tetris battle game on facebook doesnt allow me to play it.. so here i am.

i actually really wanted to watch gg, pll but then i cant find them on funshion even tho my friends said that there is.. i have been watching this show called victorious tho and it is quite nice actually. i think my fav character would be cat.. hehe. she's so cute! i dont know.. but i really prefer watching this rather than watching the shows on channel 8. i was suppose to watch a movie tonight on the laptop but then after awhile i got bored.

so i pretty much accomplished nothing for today other than going back to school to watch a volleyball match for the girls and the basketball boys. after seeing how rough some players are im pretty glad that i am not a basketball player but i do admit i like the feeling when i shoot the ball and then it "chops" right into the net.

i'll be spending my friday with josey tomorrow and hopefully we can get that num bag and tanktop that i wanted. i initially thought that num was gonna sell toms and i got really eggcitied and went to the shop the nest day but apparently it is a different type of brand but has a similar design to toms. :) i am thinking about what i should get for josey for chirstmas but then i realised that i really didnt have the time to do it.. so maybe i'll just get some thing that i thought of initially and i can prolly get it on saturday or something.. not to mention the christmas presents that i have to get for b.j.s.y.z. hehe. meeting them after z returns from her trip!!

oh and hopefully i can make it for volleyball camp the next week on the 27&28 cos i really really miss spending time with the volleyball girls. i miss them so much today when i saw them at the match and everything. hehe. so glad to see thme again.. oh gosh do i sound like a lesbian? hopefully not..

oh wells i guess is up to here for now :)

So much for the happy endings huh?
I'm so sorry. Wish it would have been a better.. For both of us. I guess Its just me then..

Guess its just me against the world now.

Lonely

I don't know why but I feel all alone now. Wheres Joseph? I don't know either but he is happy either way so it doesn't really matter.

Today wasn't a rlly good day for me, idk why. I think after all I am afraid to be alone. I thought I could really make it on my own but I guess I thought wrong. I wish I had someone here now to listen to me. Yeah like that's ever happening. I really wish that someone was Joseph but I guess he doesn't love me enough to notice that anything is wrong.

I guess he really needs that quality time w his cousin so I don't really mind. Looks like I'll be coming here more often now. I remember about what I said that this blog is only meant for happy stuff? But then again I'm so sick and tired of keeping it to myself. I really admire people who can do that and act like their happy when their life is going in all the wrong directions... I wish I could have that I kind of control. But of course I don't and that's why I'm here.

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.

Meow meow

Hi ! ^^ I'm finally back after so long! gt so many things to type about. Idk who even reads my blog anyway. Even Joseph doesn't bother, so I guess this is just another place I've come to vent stuff.

I'm just loving the life after O levels. Even though there is not much freedom given to me by my parents.. Like there's still a certain time I have to be home ( don't be mistaken, It's not curfew, just that I have to inform them when I'm coming home and stuff ) anyway the good part is that I get to do whatever I want. Like lazing on a couch all day, going S H O P P I N G (!!) watching my fav drama on the lappie & teevee, reading a book up till 3 am in the morning, waking up anytime that I want and sleeping anytime that I want.
It's actually a good feeling cuz during o levels, I actually felt guilty about not studying for a day.. And now? IM A FREE BITCH BABY!! ^^

It gets boring aft the first week so I got a job! ^^ it's actually pretty fun but it's tiring. And after clearing tables for like idk how many people I've decided never to play w my foo dwhen I'm eating out cos it's just gross. I'm look forward to learning how to make a frappe though! I've only learned halfway... But I hope that I'll be taking orders and making my very own one soon!! ^^

Prom is just around the corner but I haven't gotten my dress yet. Everyone around me seems so excited about prom night like its a dream come true but to me it's just another night out with my friends. I used to be Excitied about it.… just not so much anymore and to be honest I don't know why either.

It's alr 12:08 am alr. Got to go and sleep now cos I promised Josey to sleep before 12. nights! ^^

P.s. I want a cat so badly. Meow :(

Worst days

Why is my sister such a bitch. She single handedly just ruined my morning. GREAT. What a great way to start my day right.
Just becos yr sick I let you have the fucking room for like what? 3 weeks already? I had enough of sleeping in the living room k. yesterday I told you I wanted to go into the room and sleep but noooooo. You were like (I quote) "you have no idea what I'm going through" "that's my room too okay!!!!!!" *gives death stare. And when mom was there you just gave your stupid innocent face. Fuck it. You didn't even say thank you. Don't even know why I let you have the room again yesterday night. THANKS TO YOU I SLEPT AT FREAKING 4 O'CLOCK AGAIN. More like you dk what im going through. Disnt even have a proper sleep for the past few weeks. Thanks ah. Worlds best sister award goes to you. you know why? Because all you ever think about is YOU. Like you run the world.

OH BUT THAT'S NOT ALL YOU HAD TO GO AND RUIN THE FUCKING MORNING TOO. WHY AM I SO STUPID TO CONVINCE YOU TO GO EAT BREAKFAST WITH ME AND MOM. Urgh. And I was actually the one that ask you to come along. I thought it would be nice for you to head out and walk instead of staying at home all day but you had to just go and ruin it. So when we sat down you were acting all weak and stuff. Pls if you were that sick why can you still go out w randy ytd? But at the end I had to eat breakfast alone with everyone staring at me. Dont get me wrong, im fine with eating alone excluding everyone looking at my like a weirdo cos it's a freaking Sunday and I see everyone with their family and I am all alone. So what? I go no family? Ok can. Things I hate? Sudden change of plans.

And Joseph obviously doesn't care cos he hasn't been replying me for like the past few hours. Okay lor up to you fine w me. another best boyfriend.

The saddest part? To know that I'm all alone again. I hate that feeling but the people I love most are always making me feel that way. Kthxbye.

Oh god exams are coming and I don't think I'm prepared at all. :(
Wish me luck. I'll be back aft O'S ;)

Graduation

Hello babes and hunks!
Finally here again so apparently this goes to show that another day is wasted. I feel so stressed cos I'm still watching my dramas, etc. While everyone is mugging their butts off. :(

Surprisingly I didn't cry today like I thought I would. Nevertheless I will still be missing my bbygurls, 2dee 09'. Really wanted to say I would miss my current class but I guess I just can't bring myself to say it due to some unpleasant people. Sigh. I really wish I had a nice class in sec3/4 but I guess somethings just dont work out the way we want them too. I cant help it either and I guess somehow or rather everyone just gave up.

Tq you to melmelzzc for the hello kitty pen! SRSLY #swag.
Tq pei xin for the badge!! So frigging cute.
Tq t qr for the Paris post it's <3 fell in love w Paris again.
Tq to hsin ern for the flowers and the chocolates ;) p.s I put the flower in a pretty vase and it's on my dining table now hehe.
Tq t Jiamin for the graduation day letter. My picture so unglam plz. But I'll paste it up on the future wall of my house.
Tq t half (Berlin) for the most touching letter ever. I dont rmb me kneeling in front of the donut shop though.
Tq to sherlene for the grad day letter. Luv you bby gurlzxcc
Tq to dian Rong for the cute card ;) so creative!!!
Tq to rene for the graduation day letter. So frigging cool daiti gang ftw ^^
Tq to Dian tian for the tissue letter. So creative of you. Hehe super cute I swear. ;) I hope I don't accidentally use it.
Hope I didn't miss out any single one of you. Thank you for all the wonderful memories that you have given me. I can never ask for more.

I would also like to say a happy 5th month to Josey chng. Hehe. Thank you so much for everything. I love you. Thanks for being so nice to me and all, best thing I've ever had. ^^v

Hehe gonna write all of you a graduation day letter and pass to you all on prom. :)

Gonna go draw up a timetable for tomorrow. Hope I'll abide by it. *fingers crossed.

Gonna do up my room like this
In the future! Hehe. :) dad agreed too. #dope #swag. I love Paris <3 now I can't wait to move. Lol.

You can never mean too much to a person. Everything has it's limits. If I'm going to be that unimportant to you then I'd rather go find someone that will treat me like how I deserve to be treated.

Sunshine after the rain.

Hello babes I'm backkk!!! Like finally. Lol. This past week has been a blur for me. Apparently I only gt one a for my whole prelims two. Which means I'm a dumbass that needs to work harder. Hehe gonna do that by gg to study tomorrow at Wendy's w Josey. Hehe. Josey so nice. He bought Ben and jerrys ice cream cos I felt like eating it instead of lunch. Feel so blessed :')

Anyways o's is coming like only a few weeks away. I really got to stop procrastinating when everyone around me is like mugging their butts off. Feels like I'm not giving my 100%. :( better start working hard to get into my dream course.

Mom & dad already confirmed the house at woodlands so hopefully we will be moving in my late dec or early Jan ;) gonna have house warming and gonna invite all my bby girls. Fingers crossed that all of them would be coming. ^^v

Monday blues

I'm so tired today. No. Not just becos today is a Monday. Probably becos I slept late last night.

In actual fact however Monday pisses me off. Either that or it's my time of the month again. So this Monday is pretty much boring cos it isn't preliminary exams anymore and we are back to school and books. I mean, how lame is that? I haven't accomplished much today like I promised myself I would.

Oh god my eye lids feel really heavy now. Ah who cares. So overall I failed english paper two and only passed paper one by like 4 marks. So like everyone failed and sometimes when you are already that annoyed some other person has to annoy you even more. -.- if you know what I mean... And who I'm referring to. Sorry but you really need to shut yr gap. I managed to scrape through fnn which Isnt that bad- counting on the fact that I was out w the girls and lying on my bed when I got home the previous day of the exam. Hehe. Which reminds me of having an awesome time @scape playing pool w Mel.

On a side note... I am really craving for sushi and pizza and pasta. Did I mention that those are my three fav food in the whole wide world. Really! It's so yummy. ^^v and it never fails to make my mood better. Haha. Luv the pizza at California pizza kitchen!!! And the sushi at cini. :) hehe.

P.s. Can't wait to get the watch soon. Hehe. *imagine me w a black watch. Soon!^^ hope I can get it next week. *fingers crossed.

So much for my happy ending

I wished I was as important as always. I want to be worth it. I want to be worth your while. I want to be worth the wait. I want to be worth it. Worth it enough for you to run a mile and skip a heartbeat once in awhile. But silly thoughts have stupid ends. Just like fairytales for dreamers. They never come true. #reality idk why I feel this way now.

Flavor burst

Hihi. Okay finally I'm updating nao cos after so long I finally had a moment to myself. I havent been studying for the past for days cos preliminary exams just ended and now I have to study all over again for final examination which is coming in about a month time. :(

I really wanted to blog in the morning and just ranting all my feelings but when I woke up I was just lazing in my bed texting him and I'm too lazy to do anything else. When finally decided to wake up I had to get my lazy butt all the way to jurong point to meet daddy. Then walked around in jurong point and then headed off to view more houses. SRSLY after all the houses I've viewed I think the one at kc is the best but it's ex. Then the one at woodlands is rlly nice but the travel time is the killer part. Imagine me living in woodlands. Haha. I think I'll be lazier than I am now to go anywhere. Haha.

Oh and did I mention it was my second consecutive time heading to jurong point?! So lame ikr. But I was there ytd w cuteboy for a totally different purpose. Hehe so nice gg out w cuteboy on a sat cos he buys me stuff. Yay. #happygirl. *hintshints we should do this more often. Lol. But anyway, in the end i also went of w dad to view houses. I think I'm starting to get bored of it.

My preliminary results weren't as good probably cos I didn't study enough. I guess I have to work harder in order to achieve my goals.

That's all for now ^^ off to dinner. Nomz.

P.s. I think flavor burst ice cream from macs is one of the best ice cream they have invented. Luv the green apple and choco one. Hehe.

Good morning sunshine

Omg fnn exam is tomorrow but I'm frigging lazy to study for it. All the nerd will top the class irregardless of how much I study anyway so I don't find a point in it. Blogger finally got an app for the iPhone and this makes blogging so much easier I swear. Haha. Looks like I would be blogging more from now onwards. But it's not like anyone would bother to read it anyway. There's still like a few weeks before the start of next month and I really want to treasure this moth before it ends. In about a month time we are all gonna graduate from school. I'm gonna miss all the happy crazy unforgettable moments I had in the school and I am sure it will be one to remember for a long time ;)

Anyways. The paper is at 11am tomorrow. Means that I can sleep till 9 and have macs w Rene Ryan and Julia not forgetting josey. Weird combi. Haha then aft the paper we will be heading to queensway to watch queenscup vball :) hope that they are able to make history by wining them again! Hehe. Three cheers for queenstown!!!

Hehe gg to sleep now. Nights!

I guess this is how the story ends

When you walk away, i count the steps that you take.

How do i start? Maybe for the very first time i keep this all to myself. Never thought that i would text you first. Guess its because i value our relationship more than my ego. Haha. It was so stupid of me to turn around yesterday, i'd always thought you'd stay no matter what. Guess i thought wrong... Maybe theres just nothing left to hold onto now, isnt it? Its like we're hanging by a thread, and you dont even give a damn. But its alright now, i give up. Im so tired of these games. I dont care if im fat ugly or a soreloser #whatever. You win. Im so tired of this.

With all these aside i just want grandpa to be alright. Hope his bypass will be successful today. Hope he gets out of the icu soon..

This is the last straw, dont want to hurt anymore.

happy 3rd bby!

^ 3 words for you :)


^happy third mth! :) i think that my hair looks messy in this picture omg. :(

yay guess what i can finally blog because my mom just finally pass me the computer after so long. haha. happy 3rd mth, and so many more months to look forward to. ^^v cant tell you how happy i am that this day is here but theres is still another day that you have to look forward to in this month. 17 more days! weets. haha.

once again i'd like to say thank you to you because you've made everything so much better for me. :) sorry that i didnt give you anything for this mth, but then im pretty sure we would have a hell of a good time tomorrow. hehe. ^^v happieegurl95.

just a thought:
i've always wondered how i would be without you. i think about it all the time. im afraid that once we graduate and go to different polytechnics we would drift apart. please dont let that happen because i cant imagine life without you.

p.s. you are taking sucha long time to do yr dnt. :(

start of a new beginning

im so bored right now i think i should start to blog. whatthehell. i know right? i dont do this often enough so people genuinely dont come here anymore. hm.
right now im just using my sister's laptop becos dad's laptop is starting to load real slowly and there is nothing i hate more than that. ok i have to admit i am impatient but it is getting really slow right? cant blame me for that. haha. ok maybe it is partly my fault but whatever.

josey is sleeping i think . cos i have called him a million times but he is still not answering. WAKE UPPPPP :( sigh * anyway it is partly my fault for not replying him fast enough too i guess.

ok shit why is everything my fault. lol. im so bored im blaming myself. hahaha.
anyways, i was considering going to the stem programme. but it means like a whole lot of time and omg no social life for me so sad. haha. but i think i might stil go for it even though it is going to be quite boring going for it all alone but i guess it will work out somehow right?

im rlly sleepy now and all i really want is for joseph to pick up my phone call. omg. he sleep like pig siallll :( hmm think im going to stop here for today. its sports day tomorrow and i didnt really have enough sleep the night before and the one before the night before .. so shit my panties im dead. okie bb.

xoxo

second month

had a great day today with you. happy second month. hehe. i think that you should start wearing long jeans more often cos you look damn good in them and those pair of sneakers that you have, i dont understand why you dont ever like to wear shoes when you look so good in them.
transformers was damn good. haha. i think bumblebee is the cutest! ^^v hehehe. cant wait for what we are going to do next month.
sushi buffet was yummy, but i dont think im going for another sushi buffet ever. im so freaking full now i think that i am going to explode. cant believe i vomitted. yucks.

i really hope that you like the present cos even though there was alot to write but i bearly could find enough things to fill up the hearts. i really meant everything i wrote inside there and i hope that you have a fun time reading it.

i dont rlly want to ruin today but idk. im just rlly confused. maybe im moody but i dont know. but please dont think for a second less that i dont love you. i just. i cant take it. idk. maybe i think too much. i just dont like it.

i rlly enjoyed today. i hope you did too. thanks for everything.

sundaeeee!

hello! i havent been here for the longest time and thats becos i have loads of things to do. right now i just woke up and thanks to my dad i'm using the computer. i havent been touching it for a long time so im typing abit slow today + i just woke up. after this post im going to brush my teeth and get ready for another typical sunday. hehe. just that today i'll be seeing josey. how cool is that. i just realised that we hardly ever go out together on both days of the weekends. haha.

oh and so maybe im not changing the skin anymore cos like its so troublesome and im a really lazy person that like to procrastinate alot. plus i even feel like deactivating my fb now cos it is getting so boring. everyone is like dying on it. its starting to be like a major turn off. on a side note, i;d like to have a good hair day today becos i'll be heading to starbucks for the longest time i know.

at least when i get back home i know there will be a scrumptious dinner waiting for me! haha. did i mention that i love home cooked food. i rlly envy those people that gets them.. hmm. oh and another reason im here today is becos of the fact that josey is asleep and i have no one to talk to. i guess its good typing down yr thoughts sometimes. hahhaah

i miss you. 2 more hourss till i see you!
xoxo

first month!

hi joseph. heres the post that you've been drying to see. it is like 0012 now and im doing this post so you should be glad. i might be changing the skin cos i ws in a rush when i picked this blogskin out becaos i desperately need my sleep and you wanted a post for our first month.

just to start things of i'd like to say that i shall only limit myself to post all hte happy stuff here. this blog its for me & joseph's happy ending. means we will be getting married someday and we'll have a wonderful family together. :')

i rlly had fun today walking back. even though it was tiring and all sweaty. i love you! :) thanks for ice cream today and i swear the ice cream tastes better when i am eating it with you. i wanted to post a picture of the cupcakes and the photo album but then im too lazy to upload. :(

hope you enjoyed today!! :) happy 1st month dearest.

xoxo (which means hugs and kisses) ^^v

renovating *

xoxo.