the mystery of BA: solved

hello. hellos < lol i dont even know why i used to type like that last time. the older i am the more i realise how stupid i was before and i am so ashamed sometimes i dont even want to look back. i think you guys get that.. do you?

sometimes i wonder how me and hafiz are not bored of each other because we have this no handphone rule when we are eating. oh and this unwritten rule tht we should not use our phones when we are with each other because the moment i use it he will be like" i have to fight for you attention with a non-living thing is it?! etc etc" you get the picture.

anyway i was talking to hafiz about how we met etc etc and we started to talk about how the name BA came about. alot of people kinda asked me like why does hafiz call you BA instead of like bel or belinda.

That is because the first time we met in chiangmai or  rather the trip to chiangmai, he was asking for my name. of course i didnt want to tell him and then i told everyone not to as well. so this friend of mine-  forgot who- said like my name started with the letter B and ended with the letter A.

so hafiz ( being hafiz ) went like:  "huh? BA?"

and that was how BA came about. there were a few more weird nickname since then but this has got to be the best one. up until now it feels weird when he calls me belinda, i think im warming up to being BA.

holidays

finally back and it feels so great. sometimes i quite glad that i dont really come here much because of all the sad things that it contains but then again it feels good to type out everything that has been going on lately in my life. (not that anyone is interested) but here goes.

holidays just started and it feels really great. i am finally 18 can you believe it?! my last paper kinda ended on my birthday and to end it off i spent a great time with hafiz. he treated me to the buffet that i wanted to go for so long because everyone around me keeps talking about it. haha on top of that he even wanted to give me tix for the jb concert that is coming up but i didnt really feel like going because i dont want him to waste so much money on me.

instead he got me this perfume from yves saint laurent and like many other presents from this shop that we saw after dinner. i feel so blessed and sometimes i find myself wondering what i would do without him. most people think that hafiz is really fortunate to have me but no. i guess not. i guess im the one that is lucky. i feel like when i am with him i dont have to constantly worry about all my problems and i can finally relax more because i have someone that is worrying about it as much as i do.

he solves like alot of problems for me and forces me to face the problems that i avoid. i know that being with him brings out the better side of me because he drives me to be a better person. that is what we all want from our other halves isnt it?

i see how my friends are with their boyfriends going off to army and i try to put myself in their shoes too. what if hafiz was going to the serve the country? i bet i wont even last a day. sigh. i cant bear the thought of not having him around because he is always always there to protect me. of course there are ups and downs but then i always find myself back in his arms. and of course that is where i want to stay.

i got a job as a brownie stylist hehe and it is going great so far i just hope that it doesnt take up so much of my time so that i still have time for hafiz and softball all together. i love my new job not because of all the dish washing and the cleaning i have to do but because this job let loose the creative side of you haha and like its so therapeutic always being around chocolate sigh. even tho my coach says im going to be fat :-(
i guess sacrifices have to be made then!

sigh i have to end here because i have a game at 8 tomorrow and it is already 12. goodnight :-)