oh no you didnt.

hello my luvs! finally back here after a week cuz my life sucks and i wasnt able to blog. cant say how much i miss this place, even the word miss is an understatement.

celebrated daddy's birthday last monday at crystal jade! happy birthday daddy. you mean alot to me even tho i dont usually show how that i do in front of you. thank you for all that you have given to me in this life. so irreplaceable, literally. haha. luv you pops.

When i was little i used to hate chinese food alot. i dont understand how people can love pig trotters or like the weird side dishes. But that was before i fell in love with the xiao long bao ^^ Don't know what i have been doing for the past few years of my life without it. i think it is safe to say that it is the best food that the chinese has ever invented. 

had a dress/ skirt day with my class girls last wednesday! everyone looks so pretty and yy says that this looks like a family portrait! ( chuan yao is missing tho. prolly running to class cuz we were late)

meet DNHW/01! ^^ really love my class because it is the smallest class in the whole DNHW course and all of them are seriously cool people that are all unique in their own ways.You jelly cuz you no swag like we do! haha jk.

finally met up with my bby gurls this sunday to celebrate Sherlene's birthday or sexy as she like to call herself. "Suprise sherlene" was a total success! Even though we had to make her feel sad that we weren't going to celebrate her birthday for her but i guess it was all worth it in the end ^^ my girls are just the best damn thing that has ever happened to me. i dont know how it works but we all just get along so damn well. Of course there are arguments and bitch fights but in the end, we still love each other anyway <3 i guess in this life i would never find another group of girls that i can be as equally as close to as them.

Ate at the house of robert timms for the first time with my girls. So glad that everyone can make it on that day, so rare tho. i wanted to post the pictures but then berlin has yet to upload it. please let her upload the pictures this time (fingers crossed).

shall be blogging soon xx.
you know i love you. 

just some random pictures:

 health mapping day! <3

 my two fav people. dont know what i would do without them ^^

 hahaha i was too tired after health mapping and daniel was carrying me. not bad what. ^^

 ootd!

 sy trying to act drunk.

 @ robert timms

& she will be loved.

you call me baby, then you dont call me.

i have been so busy this week i feel breathless.

excel test is finally over and i havent studied anything since then. not just excel, but other subjects as well. i havent studied shit and things are piling up but i dont really give a shit anymore. right now all i want to do is learn lego house on the guitar and finish up the book that i have borrowed.

today my sist. boyfriend broke up with her. i just really dont know what to do when she comes crying and stuff because i already told her to dump him so many times before. i mean he isnt exactly good looking and he doesnt even treat her well. i mean if he treats her well and he is ugly then i dont mind but my sister deserves so much more than him. cant believe he still has the cheek to break up with her when she should be the one breaking up with him. who is he to shout at her? what kind of boyfriend shouts at his girlfriend and go ard texting other girls with hearts and "i love yous". i honestly dont know what karen sees in him. but it is his loss anyway.

so many things are getting on my nerves like some people i dont even understand why they exist. i dont even know why i have to exist to experience this shit that is going on. everyday i go to school and tell myself " skip lecture skip lecture skip lecture" then when i want to skip i tell myself " gpa gpa gpa " its a vicious cycle.

all my weekends are like burned out doing projects... i dont even have time to revise. like that how to get good gpa. the system is so fucked up. rn, i have like 6 projects. and some cell bio test next monday. 6 projects and all due in like 2 weeks time. how now brown cow?

so when im bored in class, these are just some of the things i do:

curled my hair today ^^

mostache me.

love is about feeling pain. without pain, we wouldnt know that we are loved. 

sup guys! how is your week? finally blogging after a gazillion years because i have so much things piling up on my "in" tray. hope i will be alive until the finals! then i can go uss with farhana, junrong and shawn!! wooyeah. haha ^^

right now i have like 5 projects on my hands. everyday i wake up and i feel like im dead because im drowning in all these due dates that i need to meet and things to study for finals. math excel test is next thursday and i havent even started studying shit. sigh. i know i shouldnt be complaining because others are worst off compared to what i am going through right now. for those that are worst off, you have my respect because im on the brink of giving up.

im pissed off that i no longer have time for myself. no time for reading and no time for revision. why are they piling us up with so many things?! i feel breathless right now. maybe that explains my constant moodswings nowadays. breaktime doesnt even count as breaktime anymore because we have to use it to do projects or study. weekends are like burned off so quickly, i regret being a polytechnic student.

whoever said polytechnic was fun, you definitely have some wired plugged wrongly in your brain because this is not my definition of fun.

wish me luck! xx

breakaway.

I know it must be wonderful to feel loved and be loved but you dont just jump into it right? The faster you get into it the faster it ends. isnt that right?

until today, i still never really understood the meaning of love. is it when they shower you with endless compliments? or pick up lines? or is it the care and concern? ask yourself this. yes, when they do that, you smile. because everyone likes to be chased once in awhile- but are you sure he is "the one?" are you sure he is going to be there for you through it all? because when you get in a relationship all you are left with is two choices: to break up or to get married.

i know the normal reaction would be like "urgh im so young, who wants to think of the future now?. but without a single doubt, it is the truth. why get into a relationship when you know that you are going to lose them someday because chances are, is that you will not get married with the person you date right now. it is just how long they are going to stay by your side isnt it?

everyday without fail, everyone looks for love. someone to love, someone to life for. but what are we searching for really?

tbh, i really dont know. i know that whoever i might date in the future is not going to be the one i spend the rest of my life with. maybe it is, maybe it isnt, the possibilities are endless and full of surprises. but i still go for it anyway. because i know right at that moment, that him and me, we are "forever". we might not get married and most likely break up but at least we have memories and no regrets.

xx

skinny love

hello guys! just wanted to share this song with you because it has been on my mind for the past few days. so do give it a listen. haha i know i dont usually play songs that are up on most blogs but i promise you this song is definitely worth your time!

got to know this song during one of the gen ed presentations and it has been on my mind ever since. skinny love means love that is undernourished.

hope you guys like it. xx

nutella cookies.

im falling even more in love with you, letting go of all i've held onto. im hanging by a moment here with you. 

hola chikas!
One week into school and im already lagging like hell. i didnt study shit this whole week and i feel super guilty about it. or maybe not. haha. finally got back all my results and i'm quite pleased with myself because i only had one c! 2 a's and the rest were bs. ^^v woo yeah. hamalehleh. it might not be the best results but i think that it is good enough for now? haha.

i guess by now you know the c grade that i have is for mathematics A. im missing b by only one mark. which means its like 69/100. its super heart wrenching because i get marked down by the most stupid mistakes. :(

finally bought friendship bands with yiying and junrong!  but i lost mine when i was shopping this friday. urgh. now i have to go get another one. :(

 jr, me, yy respectively! ^^

on friday, i went shopping with my dearest girls! ^^ Our secondary school had aesthetics night on the same day as well but we decided not to go cuz the last time we went, it was a total waste of $. Apparently the guy that was singing last year went way out of tune.. but we still clapped in the end. i think the best performance was by the drama club and the band. tbh, i dont even think people go for aesthetics night to watch performance. i guess that we all just go for it to meet up with the friends that we havent seen in awhile. its stupid that my secondary school has this aesthetics night because we would really all just spend the money on prom. even though during my year they didnt cancel prom, but they did it the year before because they had aesthetics night instead. or so i heard.

w my girls @ 313

 juls!

 ass why

 hello jayemm. i miss you. so glad i saw you on friday^^

 diantian <3

me w rene ^^

spent my sunday with dearest bby chervel. now she comes over to the house every sunday ever since we moved to woodlands cuz she just stays like a block away. ^^ for the past two days she keeps putting barney on replay on my iphone and singing it. i swear if i hear that song one more time my ears r going to explode.

i wonder if i was like that when i was a kid. but then i guess not cuz we didnt get to have iphones to watch our barney videos everywhere we go. all i remembered from my childhood was dancing in front of the teevee everyday at 5:30 cuz high 5 was on tv.

pictures from today

 chervel with my shades hahaha

 chervel w my carebear ^^

 i look damn unglam at home.

till the next post. xx