Days without Joseph #4

I tell everyone I'm ok and now somehow I can manage a smile. I hope they believe tho cos I'm trying my best.

I wonder if you miss me and think about me but then I already know that you dont give a flying fuck about how I feel..

When yr not here I remember everything about how we used to be. How I first hated you. How you became my bestfriend. Dinners. Lunch. Racing to the swings. Walking in boxes. Talking about anything and everything under the sun... The very first time you held my hands.

So hard to forget. So easy to remember. I wish I could delete you from my life immediately. But I can't, so every step of forgetting hurts. Like walking on broken glass.