holidays

finally back and it feels so great. sometimes i quite glad that i dont really come here much because of all the sad things that it contains but then again it feels good to type out everything that has been going on lately in my life. (not that anyone is interested) but here goes.

holidays just started and it feels really great. i am finally 18 can you believe it?! my last paper kinda ended on my birthday and to end it off i spent a great time with hafiz. he treated me to the buffet that i wanted to go for so long because everyone around me keeps talking about it. haha on top of that he even wanted to give me tix for the jb concert that is coming up but i didnt really feel like going because i dont want him to waste so much money on me.

instead he got me this perfume from yves saint laurent and like many other presents from this shop that we saw after dinner. i feel so blessed and sometimes i find myself wondering what i would do without him. most people think that hafiz is really fortunate to have me but no. i guess not. i guess im the one that is lucky. i feel like when i am with him i dont have to constantly worry about all my problems and i can finally relax more because i have someone that is worrying about it as much as i do.

he solves like alot of problems for me and forces me to face the problems that i avoid. i know that being with him brings out the better side of me because he drives me to be a better person. that is what we all want from our other halves isnt it?

i see how my friends are with their boyfriends going off to army and i try to put myself in their shoes too. what if hafiz was going to the serve the country? i bet i wont even last a day. sigh. i cant bear the thought of not having him around because he is always always there to protect me. of course there are ups and downs but then i always find myself back in his arms. and of course that is where i want to stay.

i got a job as a brownie stylist hehe and it is going great so far i just hope that it doesnt take up so much of my time so that i still have time for hafiz and softball all together. i love my new job not because of all the dish washing and the cleaning i have to do but because this job let loose the creative side of you haha and like its so therapeutic always being around chocolate sigh. even tho my coach says im going to be fat :-(
i guess sacrifices have to be made then!

sigh i have to end here because i have a game at 8 tomorrow and it is already 12. goodnight :-)