Lonely

I don't know why but I feel all alone now. Wheres Joseph? I don't know either but he is happy either way so it doesn't really matter.

Today wasn't a rlly good day for me, idk why. I think after all I am afraid to be alone. I thought I could really make it on my own but I guess I thought wrong. I wish I had someone here now to listen to me. Yeah like that's ever happening. I really wish that someone was Joseph but I guess he doesn't love me enough to notice that anything is wrong.

I guess he really needs that quality time w his cousin so I don't really mind. Looks like I'll be coming here more often now. I remember about what I said that this blog is only meant for happy stuff? But then again I'm so sick and tired of keeping it to myself. I really admire people who can do that and act like their happy when their life is going in all the wrong directions... I wish I could have that I kind of control. But of course I don't and that's why I'm here.

Just a small town girl, living in a lonely world.